January 31, 2008

dsc02111.jpgIt’s about choices. It’s about dreams. Possibilities.  There is beauty in this life.  Love in this heart.  Everywhere I look I see beauty. In the remarkable clouds above my head. The clouds remind me it won’t always rain.  The cool breeze crosses my cheeks and reminds me I can feel.  The sun warms and heats my chest, it reminds me that I won’t always feel cold.  I’m thirsty and I can drink my favorite vitamin water that nourishes me and makes me feel alive.  When I am lonely and I can call my loved one and spend the afternoon laughing and discussing politics.  I can be angry and disillusioned at the state of the government and I can vote and write letters to my congress.  I can be sad that people are hungry and I can donate my time and food.  I can feel ugly and I can create something beautiful.  It’s about choices.  It’s about dreams.  Possibilities.  


Words I Try to Live By

November 19, 2007

2038942458_c9eee23d6b.jpg“It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own; without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with the wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you’re telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself, if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your life from God’s presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to silver of the the full of the moon, “Yes!” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the Fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.”Oriah Mountain Dreamer, Indian Elder

Invitation To An Interview

October 23, 2007

I just got home from taking my daughter to her college class this morning. The entire county is on fire watch. The air is smoky and hard to breathe. When I look out the window, everything appears to be in a sepia color. The 50 to 80 mph wind gusts are bending the trees sideways. It was a bit hard to keep the car in one lane while driving. But I managed, because I have lived in Southern California most of my life. And driving in Santa Ana wind conditions is not unfamiliar to me. When I got home, and upon checking my email, I found an invitation to an interview for the position, at the local college, that I have been waiting to hear about for three months!!! This is a good day!!! Other than the fires of course. But the weather people tell us that the fierce winds should die down by tomorrow morning. That will help out the fire fighters enourmously. It has been a very difficult five months financially, and this job will be a major boost for me and my family. It is also my dream job and I cannot tell you how happy I am. As long as I get the opportunity to interview, I will most assurdedly be offered the position. I am a very good interviewer. Well, that is it for now. This is my very first blog, and I will stop here for today. Thanks for reading.